new obsession: the way things go by beabadoobee

This one has been lingering on the back burner since this song came out. It was all I listened to on my train ride back to my home town, and is now a staple for my deeply separated, ocean-between-us, life abroad.

This song borders on nostalgic, resentful, and accepting all at once.

The lines “There’s so much left to say, I guess I’m just the bigger guy. And there’s too much on my mind that I don’t even want to try” resonate deeply with me. Maybe it’s a little big headed to consider myself the bigger guy, but I often find myself holding back on speaking my truth when I don’t think it will serve any positive or constructive purpose. That’s how I interpret these few lines.

When she comes in later and says, “In my mind you’ll always stay the same” a lot of people come to mind. Knowing someone for a long time doesn’t mean you’ll know them forever, but you will know a version of them. When they’re not there any more to grow in front of you, your idea of them will remain stagnant and no matter how much you analyze, there will never be complete comprehension of the person they’ll become without you.

Give this song a try, and hopefully check out some of her other work. Beabadoobee is an incredible artist who deserves a good listen.